When a 15 minute “sit” becomes a life-changing moment…. OMGGGGGG!!!!!
“When the joy of doing is greater than the pain of procrastination.”
That became a feeling… a real live cellular FEELING today. TODAY!!! For the first time in my life I feel the shift from PAIN (fear) into JOY!
My life as a serial, constant, all-time, endless, incessant, unremitting procrastinator is O V E R !!!!
What happened? What did it? How did that happen? (My mind goes berserk looking for answers). Was it the Sit? This Sit? All the Sits? Was it the Shapes? The ones I see and touch and look for every day? Was it the latest scroll? Was it Emerson? Was it not watching TV? Was it looking at my Movie? Reading my Press Release? Was it something Mark, Davene, Trish or Derek said? Was it something I read in the Alliances?
r e l a x
My body chills….. it was none. I smile, an inwardly beginning smile to an all out huge smile….. r e l a x ….. it was none……. it was A L L
♥ It is E V E R Y T H I N G ♥
Who’s talking to me?
Oh, it’s me lol…. (it felt like God, for a minute)
EVERY SINGLE THING you’ve been doing EVERY SINGLE DAY is a result of how you feel at this very second. Right now.
It all rolls out before me.
(Like my life flashing before me as I’m about to die, (I think), at the same time that this rolling out thing is happening)
It’s a fast forward vision of my MKMMA weeks…. the webinars, the sits, the reading, touching my hand on the blue tiles at the end of the pool, saying Do It Now over and over…
I can be what I will to be.
It is here and now. And a line from Mark a couple of weeks ago comes to mind. It’s not about overcoming, it’s about REPLACING!!
As I get my breakfast I realise it’s been happening gradually, even though it feels like the first CLAP heralding a giant thunderstorm.
The satisfying self-responsibility feelings I had during the week when I was doing my tax returns. It felt good, rather than being a horrible chore….. I was being of service to myself and my family!!!
Getting out of bed early. Making my bed straight away. It feels lovely to look at a well made bed.. truly!!!
Touching the shapes as I walk past. Making connections. Making more connections. Doing, instead of thinking. A C T I O N 🙂
As I eat my muesli in this visceral self-aware moment, I remember one of my favourite quotes of all time. I first read it on the back a friend’s toilet door 🙂
And the day came
when the PAIN and FEAR of procrastination
against the JOY of doing.
Ode to the sit….
Never underestimate the Sit…..
Feel your body, down to the cells. Know how you feel. Know yourself. Know how you feel in “Neutral”, so you can get back to that place when you need to. Pour love into yourself, and feel it filter all the way through…. like the first water in a riverbed after the drought. It runs along with intention, seeking every grain of sand, every nook and cranny… pouring itself totally and without favour into every crevice and around every structure.